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I guess I am making up for feeling good yesterday by throwing up this morning, a lot. I went to bed with a sore stomach, just like a pit in it. Anytime I woke in the night I felt right away like I was going to get sick. I had a weird dream last night that I was at my Grandparent's house (deceased) and I was trying to put out Christmas decorations and my Grandpa kept getting mad and trying to keep certain things away from me like I would ruin them. This would've never occurred in real life. I mean he would've never cared. In the dream I had a cat that when I got so mad I was storming out of the house, I threw this cat over my shoulder to take it out with me. I must have felt it's claw sinking in, or the cat starting to struggle, even though I knew this cat would behave just how I wanted, I bit the cat and sunk my teeth into slowly, not piercing it, just a controlling grip, to tell it to calm down. I remember thinking this cat is just going freak out, bite back and claw me up, but it didn't....I don't have cats or even like them. I also remember being in their kitchen on my way out and having a huge fit of rage, taring things apart and slamming things around, screaming and just going mad. I thought someone will surely come in here to stop me or fight me, but no one did. I think I woke around then with an aching gut. I am glad to have a break from J. (my son) today, his Grammy is taking him to a Rotary Christmas lunch at a pizza parlor. I should be able to get some laundry done and some napping in too!!